I feel guilty for what I wrote about my husband. I have to give him props for putting up with my moodiness. He is one of those people who is completely unselfish.
When I am down, he lifts me up and he doesn't do things that exacerbate my condition. He has a calming effect on me. That is the number one reason I love him and have stayed with him all these years.
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My ex-wife is bipolar. I am glad you have the courage to write about this.
A book that helped me as a person living with someone who is bipolar, even though the book was written for people living with someone who is borderline-personality-disorder (BPD), is a book called "walking on eggshells".
It is written for the family and spouses of people with BPD, but many of the coping skills, and the basic awareness that (a) you didn't cause it, (b) you can't cure it, and so on, which are the same not only for BPD, and Bipolar, but also part of ALANON, and other family support groups.
Those who live (somethings at great personal cost) with people suffering from these illnesses should not forget to get some help, and to access the resources they need to cope, and have a healthy life themselves, too.
God bless your husband, and you.
Warren
Thank you for your comment. It is scary for me to write about this because as much as I want to share experiences it also forces me to view my own faults or issues.
The people in my life who are somewhat educated about the illness are much more able to "back off" when needed and to not take it personally. Its not to say that gives me free rein, as I often try to recognize the difference between acting out of rational emotions and when I am overboard.
It must take a patient and loving person to deal with this. I'm grateful that I have such people in my life.
My father has the disease, yet has never been diagnosed because he would never ever admit it but all the signs are there. =) He has hurt me more than any human being in this world so I do understand how it feels to deal with someone who is being irrational. Being in his presence is definitely like walking on eggshells.
If I try to talk to him about something he said or did that hurt my feelings he tells me I'm lying. (very frustrating)
I would never want to cause anyone that kind of pain. Have I? Probably.
I don't like to use the bipolar as an excuse either. Yet, I know that at times it is the cause but still I feel terrible about things I have done because when I look back its as though I'm looking at a different person, not me.
It makes no sense at all. =(
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